It's a Very Very Mad World

Well, here I am once more, writing of how I dislike something or another. Remember, as you read this, I am not just talking of others, making it sound like I am better, because this is just as much about me. I am no better.

Many different times this week I have gotten into conversations with many different people about this world, and the madness in it. I'm not a very sociable person, I don't get out much. I won't lie, I haven't experienced the world, only small doses of it. I grew up in a Christian family, I grew up with Christian friends, I have gone to church every Sunday of my life, I'm so used to being around other followers of Christ, and good people, that I'm not used to everything else. More and more I am realizing what a sad world we live in. As an example: A school in NC is paying girls between the ages 12-18 $1 a day for each day they don't get pregnant. WHAT? That is a perfect example of what a world we live in! Something is definitely wrong when you have to pay people not the get pregnant. Especially at such a young age like 12. That is so incredibly sad.

Everyday when I hear about things like this, it makes me want to never leave my house. Just sit in my room and avoid all outside life. I realize what terrible sinners we are, how easily we are tempted. I can barely trust anyone anymore, sometimes not even myself. I've gotten to a point where every time I meet someone new I just don't think highly of them at all, until they prove me wrong. More and more when I start to trust someone, to think well of them, I am just disappointed. No, I don't expect people to be perfect. I don't expect them to never cuss, lie, or sin in any way. I'm not that dumb, I know no human can ever be perfect. But I mean, they just keep getting worse. It's not that big of a deal anymore if you sleep with someone before marriage, it doesn't mean anything for a follower of Christ to marry someone who is a nonbeliever, It's okay to miss Church when the new episode of your favorite TV show is on on Sunday morning. ?

The people I am most ashamed of is Christians... myself. We keep getting worse. We're some of the biggest hypocrites. We go to church on Sundays, and sometimes even Wednesdays, and we sing praises to the Lord, we pray to him, we feel something during in the sermons. But the second we get out of the building, life is different. We start focusing on the latest gossip, who likes who now? We start thinking about how stupid that one person was for doing that one stupid thing. We start worrying about what others think of us, and we start cussing, and laughing at things which should never be thought of as funny. I sometimes wish I could never leave church. I wish I could always be focused on God, always think of Him first, always remember that He is more important than my friends, my happiness, my life. So often we focus on the sins of the nonbelievers, and how sad and terrible they are. We rarely look at ourselves and notice how much we are like them.
As I'm sure you all know, mostly because I think only one person reads my blogs, and I know she knows, Michael Jackson died yesterday. I was not a Michael Jackson fan, I did not like him at all. That's not saying I was happy he died though, no, of course not. I can't be happy when anyone dies, and especially not nonbelievers. But I heard so many people, and I still hear them, saying things like "Oh yay! Michael Jackson is dead! Why does everyone mourn so much because he's dead? he was an awful man!" and things like that. But, really, think about it. Say your best friend died, wouldn't you be sad? And how much better is your best friend than Michael Jackson? We're all awful people, even though not everybody is a child molester, murderer, or something, we are still all terrible sinners. Though we might not do anything incredibly terrible, don't we still think horrid thoughts, maybe of killing someone? Or of doing things we should not? Our thoughts can be just as bad. I mean, think about it.

John Wayne Gacy Jr. is a great example of this. To everyone who met him he seemed like a likeable, nice man. He threw parties for the neighbors, he was a good catholic man. That was how he showed himself to others. But he was a murderer. He raped and killed 33 boys, and hid them under the floorboards of his house.
Just remember, I'm not saying we're murders, but I think you get the idea. My favorite musical artist, Sufjan Stevens, wrote a song about John Wayne Gacy Jr. And the last line of the song is "And in my best behavior I am really just like him. Look beneath the floorboards for the secrets I have hid."


So, I think I should end this soon. To all you believers out there, we need to be praying that we can fight the temptations of the world. As we grow it gets harder and harder. So often I hear something about one of my brothers/sisters in Christ who have gone off and done terrible things. We need to pray that we would stay on the right path, and be examples of Christ to nonbelievers, and also fellow believers. It's getting easier to be tempted, and easier to forget about what's important. We need to pray that we can stay focused on God, and honoring Him.


I'll stop now. you get it. I hope.

~me